Page 175 - Kailaspati: Paramhans Hansdevji Avadhoot

sukhasya duḥkhasya na ko'pi dātā paro dadāṃtīti kubuddhireṣā, aham karomīti vṛthābhimānaḥ svakarmasūtre grathitā hi lokāḥ.
That means—No one gives happiness or unhappiness to anyone. saying that others are reasons of my unhappiness is foolish. i alone give happiness to others is nothing but arrogance. Each one is bound by his or her karma.
Baba then said, one has to wean himself from the evil ego. Ego entails attachment. You are to think that you yourself are not the worker. You must play the role of an actor or a manager. if done so, the evil ego will then be gone. Baba said, ego is of two different types—pure and polluted. Pure ego is something like—i am a pure soul. This sort of ego is not a vice at all, it is instead the means of deliverance. That i am the king, that i am an honourable man, that i am an erudite scholar, that i am the wisest Brahmin, that i am a very powerful man and that i have a staff of servants to attend to me is evil ego and hence it deserves to be discarded. human beings are not easily purged of this ego. and on that context, Baba told us a tale about Rishi Narada.
Once Debarshi Narada was travelling all alone by chanting the name of hari, in accompaniment to his Veena. all of a sudden, he came across an old woman, wailing in agony and he asked, “Why are you crying?” The old woman said, “i have lost ......” and again she started wailing. Narada, far from being affected by the misery of the poor old woman, thought, “it is all but Maya. and i am above Maya, and it can hardly affect me. Besides, this old lady is under the spell of ignorance and Maya.” and such an ego of Narada brought about his downfall.
Once Narada left his clothes and Veena on the bank of a pond and went for a bath in it. as he dived deep and came out of the water, he saw himself converted into a woman. he had forgotten that he was Narada. in course of time, she got married and mothered one hundred and one children. God, in the guise of an old Sannyasin, appeared before him to test him and said, “My mother, i am too old a man to do my own chores. You have
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